...celibacy and the country

After running,

after getting that taste of blood in my mouth

After my muscles got weak and tired

I could finally breathe again


It was in the middle of the Northern summer night,

the sun gone down but still

shedding some light



I ran straight to the sea

And I ran into it

with my clothes on,

the water cold

and dark


but not as frightening as it used

to be



I dived

I swam

I drew my breath



The wind from the salty water

was soothing my soul

Water dripping down my face

wetting my lips


Drying out the tears

of my lungs



I ran

I dived into the ocean

I had a book I could finally read again

I drank my tea again




I could finally breathe

again